Since I updated you all on the physical side of my healing, or lack there of, I will now update you on the psychological side.
The main things I am now having to deal with on a daily basis are :
- Unmanageable fear of riding in cars
- Increased anxiety or uneasiness
- Persistent nightmares
- Very Jumpy at unexpected noises occurring
I am basically now unable to ride in a car like any normal person would, just the idea that we have to go somewhere causes me to hyperventilate and feel like bursting out into tears. Anyone who knows me and my story previous tot his accident knows I am a very tough lady and have travelled the width and breath of my own country in a car, both driving and as a passenger. I have never been so fearful as I now am concerning vehicular travel. I actually get physical symptoms from being forced by circumstances to have no choice but to be in one. I am so very jumpy now, I literally jump out of my skin or duck at any sound I wasn't aware was coming, and those I was expecting if loud enough I still jump as well. I am having constant nightmares, this leads to constant bad sleep... which obviously is wearing and not good for me. I have a general sense of anxiety & uneasiness around me now and have to try to keep my mind very occupied to ignore this causing me panic attacks. I will need to seek professional help for all of this I know...but want to get my physical self a bit better first as sitting in a chair for 30 mins to an hour right now would cause too much pain.
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